Words

WORDS | #manifestgreatness

I'm a firm believer in giving. I believe there is always room for growth when willing to give; give again; and give some more. I'm also a firm believer in taking a step back to look at your own life; and the good in it. 

You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestation of your own blessings.
— Elizabeth Gilbert

There is also something to be said about the brilliance in reminding yourself of how powerful it is to embody the blessings on blessings before you; and to understand them.

WORDS | ...BUT REALLY, THIS IS TRUE

How many of us spend days planning, plotting and navigating ways to help others help themselves? I do. Relentlessly. 

The problem is
everyone has a problem.
And everyone is far too busy
trying to fix the problems of others,
before taking the time
to fix their own...




themselves.
— R.M. Drake

Can anyone else relate? But what do you do for your own set of problems? 

PRO TIP | 

Fix your own first. Let go of what's hurting your soul; your drive; your ambition. 

P.S. Weather today? 74 + sunshine. Springtime in New York is well on it's way. Amen.

WORDS | ...(+) A WHOLE WIDE WORLD AHEAD

I was out late last night. 

But, this morning I got up early. Of course I did. That's what I do. 

I wake up. 

I work out. 

And I continue to repeat this routine because it drives me. 

But this morning walking to my coffee shop, after an extremely challenging class at SLT, I couldn't help but think about how it wasn't always this way. It wasn't always that I found peace-of-mind during moments of finding mental strength, inevitably building my physical strength.  

It took time before I got to the point of finding this release; this physical release that brings me clarity. 

As I have so many thoughts going through my head right now (all of the thoughts, always too much thinking), I can't help but let my mind divert to one of my favorite quotes from Great Expectations

 

We changed again, and yet again, and it was now too late and too far to go back, and I went on. And the mists had all solemnly risen now, and the world lay spread before me.
— Charles Dickens - Great Expectations

There is nothing more crazy (is that the right word?) than looking back, and, seeing that you can't go back. You can't change what's happened (or maybe what hasn't) due to your own decisions.

Obviously. 

But, you can look ahead. You can look ahead and see there is a whole lot of ground to cross. And you get to think: holy crap (!) there is so much to come, there are so many possibilities, there are so many unforeseen ways we will change, grow, etc.

It's thrilling. It's really so thrilling.

There is so much ahead for each of us. But you have to take advantage and find that thing that brings you life. 

What drives you forward?

WORDS | SOUL AMMUNITION

...because, well, Colorado has me thinking like this:

It’s all space and energy.
The act of release - to gain even more.
What doesn’t work out creates room
for what does.
— I AM HER TRIBE

Something I am fixated on: nothing is a constant. Everything is a stepping stone. 

It's kind of beautiful though, right? The unpredictability of life. Like how breaking my hip was one of the better things that could have happened to me; and like how going to the mountains put the vastness of this world, and my size, in perspective - one that gets lost far too quickly in the concrete jungle. 

Food for thought. 

x

WORDS | 'CAUSE I'M FEELING SO HIGH

Seemingly, I have yet to put a cease to the spending - and well, doing as one does as a Millennial, have continued to cut it close (too close) at the end of every paycheck. So it goes.

Anyways, here's the back story on why I am #poor -

I have always liked Coldplay. Always. And their new album is awesome, but I had to share the song that has really resonated with me... lately. And I mean, I really don't think I have stopped listening to it, well, in days. 

Some songs suit the current happenings in your life. Duh? That's why we listen to music... obviously to make connections and such. But this one has me feeling high - for many reasons - as I take a moment to reflect on so much that's happened the past few weeks; the people I have met, the physical goals I have accomplished, etc. 

So here is the song:

HYMN FOR THE WEEKEND (click link here to play) 

And don't lie, nothing has power quite like that of a feel-good song. Am I right, or am I right? Luckily, even if you tire of this song, there is a whole new album, A Head Full of Dreams, to keep your little ear drums happy on that dainty commuter subway ride... 

Oh, and yes, I do lip synch sometimes to this song. But yes, I do try to stop myself the second I realize what's happening... ugh, I am such a freak.

Ok back to my initial story, all of that said, the other day when my brother asked if I had interest in attending the Coldplay concert this July in Chicago with him and entourage, I thought to myself (for all of four seconds) - how could I seriously say no? 

Looks like I will be in Chicago at the end of July? And it looks like I finally get to see one of my favorite bands live. It's about damn time. 

WORDS | ACTIVE LISTENING

Words (not) on a Wednesday. I'm behind. I'm busy. It's the problem I have in finding balance between, you know, sleeping, sweating, working (?), etc. 

But these words? They come from my February Horoscope:

Gemini, Trade selective hearing for active listening.

Words are your secret superpower, o’ storytelling Twin, but they can also be used to manipulate and deceive. Magical thinking can be a dangerous habit—you fall hard for the character sketch you spin about someone, then hear only what fits with that fantasy. Trouble is, the REAL person may be saying something completely different than what comes through your filter. Ask questions and listen…before your bubble is burst by a rude reality check.

Took this straight off of The New Potato - And yes, I find a nice connect. 

Okay so I am totally not an astrological guru over here. Not at all. But I have been into reading my 'scope the past few months - I find it something along the lines of interesting. And I find this one especially interesting. 

Why? 

Because I have realized over the past few months that I need to actively listen. Far too often I have had too many thoughts shooting through every.which.way that lead my to be selective about what I am actually retaining.

That's the problem when you're distracted; you begin to only hear the things you want to hear. Working to fix that. 

In other news since my mind is all over the town: 

Today I crushed a 6am Soul followed by a 7:10am Barry's Bootcamp Abs with Vanessa (an Akin's Army girl). I was so nervous... that I would fail. But I didn't. In fact, the entire time, I just kept thinking about how far I have come, which in turn, pushed me even harder. And the even cooler part? I was strengthened by someone who has seen me throughout so much of the physical change that's procured throughout my recovery. It makes my heart so happy getting to sweat it out with people who are there to constantly lift you... rather than tell you otherwise.

WORDS | ALL WE NEED

Channeling my mood all morning. Woke up feeling this song more than ever.

ODEZA - ALL WE NEED (link to listen here

Hoping the weather seriously turns up and we get hit by a snowstorm this weekend. 

Side note: Obsessed with City Row. Chalk it up with another class to cash out on. Shoulders on FIRE.

Side note pt. II: Kygo tomorrow night? So. Psyched. #thisis25

WORDS | SHOOT FAR

Below is the mantra I have been toying with the past couple of days. And guess what - it's not a revolutionary thought by any means, just one I have seen floating around the 'net lately and thus - it's got me thinkin'...

You miss 100 percent of the shots you don’t take.

B A S I C. Easy to comprehend. Easy to follow through with?

Different story. 

Anytime I want to give up (shocking?) or slow down (yes - sometimes I try to take a breather), I revert to the sentence above. Why the hell wouldn't you take a chance? Better shoot and miss than never know.

I've found a lot of success with this in my job specifically the past few days. Editors I typically don't pitch are biting back; story ideas that sound outlandish are getting picked up. 

I've also found that physically - in the spirit of always trying to become stronger - why not find news ways to take on challenge? That said, the other day, seven lbs. weights were placed in my hands in the middle of class for the eight minute section of arm work. I typically do six; the average is two. Wouldn't have known I could totally take the burn, had I not at least tried.

It's so applicable in any situation; if you never shoot for something more, it could have an adverse effect on where your life could end up one day. That should be enough scare tactic to hold yourself accountable, no?

2016 | I SEE YOU

Two days into the New Year and I lost my favorite pair of sunnies. I guess you could chalk it up as a loss. And let me add, they weren’t inexpensive either.

I was not happy.

But that brings me to what I want to focus on this New Year. Twenty sixteen. Because just as expected, the days are quickly beginning to unfold. 

Ready for my revelation? 

I want to focus on life

It sounds so basic, but at the root of it, it’s probably one of the most loaded four letter words that’s out there. 

And the reason for this focus comes from convo that was had over glasses of Monteplucciano on New Years Eve with two of my best friends, Kels and Tor, as we spent hours at Vic’s on Great Jones for dinner and a champagne toast. It was my favorite New Years night to date. Truly. 

I digress.

So as we were reflecting on the past year, which for a few of us - it was not our easiest, we had a this realization. This year that we kept reminiscing on with semi-heavy hearts, was the year we finally got it. We really were experiencing life. It was just in a different way than we were used to in the past. 

Moments of invicibility, followed by days of despair; uncomfortable conversation followed by facing fears, some of which were even followed by tears; challenges overcome with monumental strength. 

And now, it’s so clear. 

All of these feels, these emotions, these are what a life is comprised of; this is what it’s like to grow up. It’s to realize that life is all of these things. It's not always a cloud nine experience. It's what makes our stories and adds to the different chapters. 

So, my resolution? 

To feel all of these things. And really realize the unforeseen benefit that comes from the highs and the lows. There is nothing else to do but be present. 

And yes, of course, I have to share a quote from A Brilliant Madness (thanks, Aud!) that I have ripped out and taped next to my mirror. Words. They get me going (New Year, same addiction). 

NOTHING IS SOMETHING

Every day
we hope to do
something different,
to be better.

Though sometimes
we always end up
doing the same thing.

We do nothing
because we feel like we have
nothing,
just impossible dreams.

We have more in us
than we want to believe.

More life,
more fire,
and more soul to burn.

Sometimes nothing is something…

even if we cannot

see it for ourselves.
— R.M. Drake

That right there? It’s my wish for all of us in 2016. Find more life, more fire and certainly more soul to burn.

Oh yeah, for those of you wondering: I re-bought the sunnies. Now I can just move on and pretend it didn't happen. It's life. 

Gaining perspective. Making the days count.

This is life. 

 

WORDS | R.M. Drake Does It Again

Some goodbyes start something in you, 

the kind of thing you are not meant to explain

you just know

you have to solve on your own. - R.M. Drake

That said, it's never easy, but with the start of a new year on the horizon, it kind of feels refreshing. It being the letting go.

And // the start of something new.

 

Warm Welcomes | Nana in New York

Pic from The New Potato Holiday Party at WTC360 | We CRUSH Photo Booth opportunities. 

Pic from The New Potato Holiday Party at WTC360 | We CRUSH Photo Booth opportunities. 

If you haven't heard her high-pitched, yipping little voice, Nana Wimmer is now in New York City (!!) and you would never have any idea that it's been three years - almost to the date - of us last seeing one another. Crazy. 

So yes, there has been a slight lack of posting - sorry - but there has also been a lot of good stuff happening out and about around these parts. 

Between brunches, work outs (you didn't think she was going to get off the hook that easily, did you?), wining and dining, on top of events - there hasn't been much time to get all of my thoughts (so many) in order. 

I'll be reporting back here next week with all of the details of her stay. [+ lots of pics]

AND. If all goes as planned, my dates that I will be hopping the pond to visit her in Germany in 2k16. Need to regain my creative spark... stat. 

As this little German would say: kuss x

WORDS | When We Were Young

Okay. This song. Nails my every feel; my every heart string has been pulled. 

Vanity Fair leaked Adele's newest song (yes - even more recent than her Hello song - equally amazing) and it blew my mind. Rephrase: it blows my mind. Present tense. 

Seeing everyone that you’ve ever fallen out with, everyone that you’ve ever loved, everyone that you’ve never loved, and stuff like that. And where you can’t find the time to be in each other lives and you’re all thrown together at this party when you’re like 50, and it doesn’t matter and you have so much fun and you feel like you’re 15 again. So that’s the kind of vibe of it really. . . . My favorite lyric in it is ‘You look like a movie, you sound like a song / My God this reminds me of when we were young.
— Adele

LISTEN HERE

This song sums up so many of the feels my heart has felt. 

Cheers.

WORDS | Be Unstoppable

be unstoppable.

The easiest way to do this (^) is by building up your mental strength; it's the foundation of everything.

Do it for you because you love it.

Do it for you because it makes you stronger.

Do it for you because it makes you happy. 

At the end of the day, who cares what anyone has to say. Continue to strive to be your best self because that's what you want; that's the only way to garner the results you want to see. It's a continual evolution. 

You're in charge of you.  

 

WORDS | On Point

Morning coffee shop vibes, thoughts, the like; ready?

She has been waiting for you just as long as you have been looking for her. Find her. Die for her. Keep her. Life will be better when she is around, what is left of it can still become interesting.
— R.M. Drake

Who else has felt the same at one point or another? You know - all of the feels associated? Who else has had the urge to just shake that one and simply tell them; life would be so much better together. 

Not a mushy post - or not intentionally. In actuality, it's just a simple, factual observation. 

Sometimes it's so obvious that you miss the person who has been standing in front of you the entire time.

^ channeling my current mood. Now off to Miami for a few days for biz. Ciao!  

WORDS | Just DO It

READ below:

The most effective way to do it is to do it.
— Amelia Earhart

This morning, I had zero desire to get up at 5:04am to get my ass kicked at a 6am spin class. None. But? How the heck am I supposed to achieve what I want physically if I don't just do it. If I don't get up and push myself. Same goes with work in the PR industry and pushing a publication to write a piece on a client; the most effective way to get that person published is to continue coming back at the person until they have a story idea they want to run with. Same goes with friendships; they only last when they're fostered - you just do it for the ones you care about. 

 

[...] and on, and on, and on. 

WORDS | Step Forward

In any given moment we have two options: to step forward into growth or to step back into safety.
— Abraham Maslow

Feeling pretty inspired these days. You can probably sense that, yeah? Finally have started to get back to some of my old routine. Things are becoming more normal. I can start to partake in some of my favorite things about this place; one of them being simply walking around at dusk on a summer night. 

I've also been able to start riding again with Akin, the champ, that for the past few months, continuously would check in on me and make it be known that I would get back and get stronger than I was before the injury. He's kind of awesome in that way. 

And lastly, with the perennial back-to-school mentality leveraged throughout society, I feel like I am truly moving forward. Moving into a new season full of new beginnings, with lots of room for growth across the board; mentally, physically & emotionally. 

 

WORDS | Blooming Always

She is going to find herself,
when she is meant to find herself.
In the wrong or in the right place.
In this space or the next.
Tomorrow is drowning drunk in love,
in inspiration.
In the things she cannot always understand,
But there will always be something happening to her,
and something will always be changing her.
Something to bring her closer to herself.

She will continue, she will endure and grow.
And the way she will see the world
will be nothing more, than a reflection of herself.

And all at once, the search will be beautiful.

The birth of a flower is one to remember,
we all pay attention to her bloom.
— R.M. Drake

Feeling at the juxtaposition of extreme strength and slight weakness. Last night, I participated in my first active workout (outside of my weekly physical therapy) in over eight weeks - for me, a span of time that's felt like eternity. During the 1.5 hour class, in a room where heat was pumping over 100 degrees, I had to sit many times. Why? Well, some of the poses were out of my comfort zone and there were moments when it was so hot, I quite literally thought I was going to faint. But during that class, I was thoroughly challenged - mentally. 

I remembered what it feels like to want to quit at something and walk away. I wanted to leave that room so badly throughout the periods of feeling faint. But the instructor said her one rule was that nobody could leave the class. So - I remained still. And focused on my breathing. I focused on my reflection. 

I focused on staring at myself in the mirror, per the instructors direction. I watched my body struggle; sweating to try and cool me down while trying to remain balanced throughout various poses. It was anything but easy. 

And as we were laying on the mats at one point in the class, the instructor spoke of how there will always be change in our lives (DUH) and there will always be ways we evolve - but it's up to us to decide what that evolution is going to look like. So, while hey, it's easy to get down on myself about how I am not at my physical peak like I had been a few months prior, I was reminded that I am in control of the now - and of my body. And since I am the one living in it, I better making it bloom pretty damn pretty for myself. 

x #bloomfromwithin

WORDS | The Power of NOW - vol. one

 

"CREATE NO MORE PAIN IN THE PRESENT."

ECKHART TOLLE

La Colombe is my morning game changer every M-W-F before PT.

La Colombe is my morning game changer every M-W-F before PT.

This week, I've tried to do exactly that. I think my greatest frustration with this whole #hip situation has been with myself and how the pain has been so much more mental... than physical.

Nobody’s life is entirely free of pain and sorrow. Isn’t it a question of learning to live with them rather than trying to avoid them?

^ RIGHT. Why create more pain that's controllable because the pain you're feeling is created in your mind. 

My boss gave me this book as a gift last week. She could see my frustration; my hurt. She knows me well enough to know I wasn't my best self anymore. I was beginning to create more pain as a form on nonacceptance - "resistance to what is". I was emotionally negative and it was progressively getting hard to combat. I was trying to fight the now. But what I am realizing more and more is that the fight is futile.

...The more you are able to honor and accept the Now, the more you are free of pain, of suffering - and free of the egoic mind.

3 DAYS DEEP - I'm feeling stronger. Mentally. check check.